365/365 of 2016

Three years.

My last post is at 2013, and now, it's last day of 2016.

Tomorrow is d-day, new year! 

hmmm, I think I'll just have a Q&A sessions with myself since i don't know what to say about,

so....

Q: How are you?

A: ermm, yea, fine! 

Q:How old are you now?

A: 19. pft.

Q: Describe 2016 with one word.

A: one word? Complicated

Q: Tell me about your 2016

A: well..at first...I know this year will be a year for me to fight for. but, it came out I changed...quite much.

STPM sem2 and sem3...5th hardest exam in the world. i think..STPM is not for me. It's hard, it beyond your expectation...you wouldn't know what you'll be going to have in your exam and its unexpected! Other than STPM, my 2016...is a changing year for me. My personality, my directions, my mindset...it's different.

Q: so, tell me how have you changed this year.

A: In bad way, I became more inconfident about myself. I know my results are bad, and i don't know what can I do >< . Even i chose one subject for my further studies, i'll still worry about it, not confirm about it...and  I became indecisive about what I'm going to do, I've lost my way...I'm still the think too much girl... I need to seek God more, that's all I know. In a good way, I become more gentle, more understanding, cooking skills ++ , my financial control is better than before, i care for other ppl more..?

Q: Do you think you've have grown more mature?

A: mature...the true definition of mature is 

1) https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-actual-meaning-of-maturity

2) mature in the Lord - https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1982/10/the-meaning-of-maturity?lang=eng&_r=1 

after reading* 

errr, yea..maybe, a bit.

Q: what is your new year resolution?

A: lose more fats, continue to grow whether mentally or physically, know what is God's calling for me.

Q: Your to-do-list a.k.a bucket list for next year?

A: 

1) hairdo

2) more new clothes

3) skincare products (to whiten myself) 

4) more foods

5) new shoe!

6) diet

7) travel without parents

8) love my parents more

9) new purse please

10) guitar pickssss 

i can't think more about it for now hahaha.

Q: hmm, tell me your love life.

A: love life? complicated. All in God's hands, all in God's hands........... 

*whisper* but he's amazing hehe. I admit I'm blind hahahaha

Q: any other things you want to talk about your friends?

A: school friends (part 1) tbh..i feel insecure whenever i'm with them. there's too much thoughts about them. So many of 'what ifs' and 'how can they be like this'... it's...not pure. 

school friends (part 2) they're awesome! they welcome me to bball tgt, eat tgt, pure! :) 

church friends, still the old them.

Q: last question..any other things to say about?

A: I wanted to be a better person next year. I wanted to become someone that is confident about her life, her opinions, her mind, her everything. You maybe will see that I become more quiet than before, but that's me? I wanted to master some skills, to know what can I do with my talent, to know what can I do, to know what God want me to do....I wanted to be myself more. I wanted to improve my think too much, sensitive, low-self-esteem. I realize i've been pleasing others this year, and i lost myself...but tomorrow is a new year! I'm gonna leave the old self behind and become new in God, in the world. I can do it! ;) 

Lastly, :D

I thank God for everything, what I have been through this year, makes me depend on Him more.

I personally feel God's presence this year and I love it. 

I thank all my friends that help me through darkness and circumstances 

I thank them for letting me know how evil the society will be.

To prepare myself to enter society, it's scary, but I got my superman. (Him)

I thank him for being there with me, who tries to understand me, to encourage me, who treat me with care and gentle, thank you.

that's all. ^^

with love,

HuiChi. 

xoxo.